my best

the best guy.

the catch.

the one with everything to offer.

cook, create, clean.

idea generator.

romance.

and still, be dead in the water.

(idiot)

my rainfall

A lot of people love the sun. the clear blue skies with floating imaginary babies and animals drifting along like its very own movie scene.

but i love the rain. it’s a huge contrast from the bright blue days where the sun shines on everything and gives the illusion that everything is beautiful. and there are of course a lot of people that hate the rain.

it’s dirty, drudgingly dark, and depressing.

i beg to differ. i find the rain to be very beautiful.

with of course the exception of the lightning that splits the skies and the earth shattering thunder (of which i don’t mind either because it’s something i love).

i find that the rainfall has it’s great moments too. no, not the fact that it brings out terrible drivers, but the fact that i find that i can stare outside and i can enjoy the serenity and the peace that comes from a rainfall. as the raindrops pitter patter on the rooftops, it gives my heart beat a smooth rhythm to follow. it’s like nature has its own drum beat. smooth.

and of course, dancing in the rain. there’s just something that comes from it. yeah it’s cold from when the rain absorbs all our body heat, but the warmth of another person holding you while you flow to the rain is so much better.

but my rainfall, isn’t depressing and it’s not gloomy. it’s a perspective. that even in such dull colors you can still find beauty in it.

My Vindication

- you can’t save everybody if you can’t even save yourself -

I think that’s the mentality a lot of people have nowadays. And because of it, the world we live in has become jaded and cut-throat that it affects every aspect of my life (and possibly others)

- dating // relationships //
- gaming // competition // friendships
- work // job markets //

but that’s not really the point of this post.

I’ve always fancied superheroes or something. I mean, who hasn’t wished for super powers! However, I’m more focused on the noble characteristics and personalities that they share. Their sense of Justice. Why they fight the good fight.

Maybe you were sent to earth with super powers. And with that said you have the inner feeling that you have save everybody because they can’t help themselves. Or due to some self-defeating past event, you realized that the overabuse of your powers cost someone their life. Or possibly a self-destructive moment in time caused you the inability to move on and only thus creating a new fear that strikes the heart of villians.

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this post is about 2 months too late when it comes to posting. i had originally intended on it being more of a wanting to save everybody kinda thing.

however, i feel like more to the relatability to all classes of superheros. powers/no powers.

what’s the one thing that ties all heroes together?

and it struck me earlier last night when i was recollecting my past and how i can never get over anything except pick up, move on, and just keep carrying that by myself.

it’s having the weight of the world on your shoulders because your past is what makes you.

defines you.

makes you the person who you fight for.

and as of today, what happens when a superhero is defeated. destroyed. dissolved?

they come back.

stronger.